Friday, August 14, 2009

Woe is me! Okay not really!

In my last post I said how excited I was to get Seth home. It has been great, but of course nothing ever goes the right way when you have things planned. At least for me anyway. I had places for the girls to go every day this week, and then Bella got sick. And not just a cold, but apparently she was one day away from being hospitalized. She just had a common cold but with her asthma it was a thousand times worse. Her breathing was awful and she just wasn't herself. So I kept both kids home all week since the doctor said Bella was contagious.
Don't ask me how we've made it to Friday. Most days I was beat when Seth came home.
He has been great though. Fixing dinner, going to the grocery store, doing the dishes, and taking care of both sick kids. Yes, Claire got sick too. Of course. Nothing like Bella but she did have a runny nose, and fever.
Now they're both feeling better and Seth is off to Chicago. Just for the weekend, but it feels like much longer when he's gone.
One positive thing is that the kids have a place to go every day next week. Hooray!!!!!
I had a doctors appointment yesterday and a stress test today. Everything looks good. One baby is 4.3 lbs and the other is 3.13 lbs. I seriously can't believe they're going to get bigger. Bella was my biggest and she weighed 7 lbs. So I'm about maxed out on how much I can carry. Also to add to the news my doctor was sharing with me, he informed me he wants me to make it to 38 weeks. I almost started crying when he said. All I could think was, "where in the hell are they supposed to fit"?!!! This came as a shock to me because I thought we were shooting for 36 weeks. I know I need to think about what's best for the babies but some times all I can think about is how hard it is for me to get around and function.
Alright already! Someone should just slap me and remind me how lucky I am to have made it this far and not be on bed rest and how lucky I am that they are doing so well and how lucky I am to have such amazing family and friends to watch my kids and bring us dinner!
So okay, please forgive me for once again having a negative post. I promise I'll be better.


Jenn said...

It is not easy for you right now. I feel bad that I haven't done anything much to help. Our kids were sick, too. (sounds like the same thing) If you need anything, I hope you will call. I would be happy to bring a meal this week. Just let me know what day is open, and you can plan on me. It is rough on your own, but even more pregnant!

** Adrian ** said...

I know it's hard, but you are doing SOOO GREAT!!! I can't imagine going through everything you are with TWO babies. It was hard enough with only 1 & dealing with restrictions & bedrest & everything else. Try looking at it this way: I was told that for every day my baby was able to stay in the womb it was equal to THREE days in the NICU! Just think how much sooner they'll be able to come home if you add up all that time!!! I know sometimes it doesn't feel like it, but you CAN do it!!! You are such an awesome Mom & ALL of your girls are so lucky to have you as their Mom!! A wise friend of mine who was on bedrest for THREE MONTHS for a couple of her pregnancies (she has ELEVEN kids!) told me to just take it a day at a time. If you tell yourself you have to make it 5 more weeks it'll be really tough, but if you tell yourself that you're just going to make it through that particular day, or hour, or ten MINUTES even it makes it a lot easier. I remember thinking this to myself OVER & OVER at the hospital. There were days that my back hurt SOOOO bad from laying in bed all day that I just wanted to scream, but I would tell myself that I could make it another thirty minutes or an hour & try to distract myself from all my discomfort & worrying about my baby & family at home... it worked for me!! & some days a good cry did wonders, too!! YOU CAN DO IT!!! ;)

bevany said...

I just saw your status on facebook and I'm guessing there's another negative post coming? I'm so sorry things aren't going too well for you guys. Seriously though...38 weeks? I have a hard time making it to 38 weeks with just one baby, I can't even imagine with two. You can do it though. Two more weeks will make them so much healthier! Where are you delivering by the way?

Jenn said...

Remember your question- it is private. Maybe just get info. and send it to me.

Sid said...

you can do it amy... It will be so worth it in the end. I know from the outside it's easy for people to say "buck up" , but it's so hard to see the big picture when you are miserable!!! I totally understand, but you will be so glad when those babies come out big and healthy and you can take them home!