Friday, September 21, 2012


We've got 2 in soccer this year. It's so much fun. And Seth is loving being the coach!

1st Day of School

Since Bella wasn't here for the first week of school I had my do-over a week later.
Oh I just love these two!!

Syd & Bre's birthday Pictures

I've said it before but I have the BEST friends ever!
Given the state I was in with Bella being gone I wasn't up to pulling a party together. 
Sweet Linda Summsion made the twins their own cakes!!!
Candace hosted the party in her backyard and Chelsie donated the use of her slip n slide even though she was out of town.
And so many people showed up with only 2 hours notice on a Saturday.
Bottom line- the twins felt special on their 3rd birthday and that made me so happy!!

Happy Birthday Syd & Bre!!

With everything that happened with Bella being gone I wasn't able to do a proper birthday post for my sweet girls. But again thank you to everyone who made their birthday special.
I love these two! My life just would not be the same without them!

Bella's Home!!

The minute Bella walked through the door my life felt complete again. I've journaled everything about the 2 weeks but haven't posted because it was too personal. But for everyone who helped me through it, taking the twins, making us dinner, taking Claire and taking care of me when I couldn't get out of bed- THANK YOU!!!
I wish I had recorded the reunion that the girls all shared. 
That night w had a movie night and Bella stayed up until 11:30pm with me.

Dance Recital

The girls had a dance recital during the summer. It was Desi's last year of teaching dance. I have to say I'm really going to miss it. not only was it a bargain (only $10 a month and they made all the costumes) but they all had so much fun!

Thursday, September 6, 2012


I've never felt pain like this before. I thought going through the pregnancy with a husband cheating on me was hard. But what Kenny is doing now hurts so much more. He has had Bella for 2 weeks and I can hardly stand it. He won't let her use her phone and every time we talk he's right there. When I ask "Is Kenny right there?" she says yes and when I say "Is it hard to talk with him there?" she says yes. Now he's saying he won't bring her back until Friay at 6pm. Which is past his time. If he does that she'll miss the primary ice cream party and walking home with her friends. He cares so little about her. If he cared at all he would let her walk home with her friends and then come get her or something. During his 2 weeks he took her to his work and she just sat there and watched shows on the computer. I hate that he's doing this. He's causing so much pain on everyone. It's hard t take care of the twins and Claire. I feel like I'm in a fog and it's never ending. I don't sleep and I don't eat. I've lost 7 lbs and I'm so tired all the time. The doctor gave me Ambien but it doesn't seem to be helping. He also started me on Prosac. I don't know if that will help. I've never had to take drugs like this and it's because of the stressed caused by Kenny.
I just love my little girl so much!! I want her home. I've never been away from her for so long and it's physically killing me. I don't feel like I can make it,