1st Cooking Class

About a month ago I signed the girls up for a cooking class and today was their first time. 

It did not disappoint. I couldn't believe how much stuff they made. Caramel apples, pizza, a chocolate spider thing and ghost cupcakes.

They couldn't stop talking about how much fun they had and the new friends they made.

Best money I could have spent.

Sad

I feel so defeated.
I think we're going to have to settle and let Kenny have 50/50.
This hurts more than anything I've had to go through.
I'm turning over the most precious thing in my life to someone else. And I don't trust him.
I'm so scared.
I can't stop crying.
I wish there was a better solution.
I hate this.

Settlement Conference

I've been a wreck since last Wednesday when Anna Trupp gave her recommendation that Kenny should have 50/50 custody.

But today I'm not feeling as nervous and scared as I thought I would.

I know it helped that I went to the Temple yesterday and that so many people have said prayers in our behalf.

It's hard because none of this seems fair or what's in the best interest of Bella. It's just about what rights Kenny has.

I just want Bella to know when this is all over that I did everything I could to keep her where she feels safe and happy. 

Yesterday Kenny's attorney sent over his list of things he wants for the settlement. They include us paying for his attorney fees, he wants to be able to drink alcohol with no limits in front of her and not bring her ack for church as well as goon the recommendation from Anna.

I've been praying for some guidance as far as knowing if we should just settle or go to trial and afte I saw his request I feel like I know my answer.

I can't in good faith agree to what he's asking. It may be a long shot but I've go to try.

So we'll see how today goes. It stinks that Seth can't be there. He's been Bella's dad since she was 7 months old but since he's the "step father" he can't.

I know when this is all over he can't take away the last 8 years.

General Conference

The girls were really paying attention to conference today.

I heard lots of giggling and came into the room to see this.

Makes me so happy!

Best Helper

Bella made dinner tonight for the girls. It was her first time making dinner. She's made sandwiches and got cereal for the girls but this was her first time making something on the stove. She made white shells. 

It was such a huge help for me. 

Seth was at priesthood and I was getting ready to have Alison and Marianne and all their kids over. So I really appreciated her help.

She's growing up so fast! But I love watching her!