Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Make it stop

It's started again. About 2 years ago I blogged about this same thing. Jan.2008
I don't know why this happens every time I have a baby, but without fail I turn into "worse case scenario mom", as Seth calls it.
Every night I think I'm ready to go to bed, because I'm exhausted, I lay down and what happens? My mind goes crazy thinking up all the horrible things that could happen to my kids. Eventually I fall asleep but usually I wake up in a sweat because I've just had the most awful dream about something bad happening to one of my kids. I know enough not to watch the news after I have a baby. But a lot of the things I dream up aren't from stories I've heard on the news.
I think a little worry is good because it helps you keep your kids safe. But too much and I'll make myself and my kids crazy.
I hate it! How do I make this stop? I know I can't be the only parent who does this. But what am I supposed to do? Any advice?

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

AMBIEN Hed...I love it! It makes bedtime such a wonderful thing...cause I do the same thing!

Jen Jenkins said...

I do the same thing! Especially after having a baby... Not to sound cheesy, but I seriously pray that Heavenly Father will watch over my kids while I'm asleep and can't. Have their guardian angels watch over them while you get your much needed rest. And who better to watch your kids while you sleep than guardian angels!? Hope you are doing well!

Nikki, Cody, and Tessa said...

Leave it to Noelle to tell you to take Ambien. hehehe. :) I can relate, those feelings I've had...they just leave you feeling like a crazy person. I would heed Jen's advice. Prayer always seems to help you feel peaceful.

Unknown said...

I'm so glad to hear what you guys said about prayer because I've had to do that so many times already. Good to know I'm not the only one who has crazy thoughts.

Chad and Kristen Milne said...

Amy, I did the same thing. You might consider making a phone call to your doc if it gets bad enough, it could be post partum. Anxiety is a huge symtom of PP. I was never depressed, just anxious so I never considered PP depression. My sister does the exact same thing. She opted to have a PP shot with her 3rd. She said it was very effective. You only have a small window of time after the babies are born where you can get it. I am definitely getting it next time. I get a little coo coo after wards. Look up PP online, anxiety is a very common symptom.

bevany said...

Have Seth give you a blessing. I totally understand how you feel. I have major anxiety over EVERYTHING. Hang in there! Hope I can come see you soon.

sunshine said...

Aghhh!! I wish we could just turn our brains off sometimes!! Definitely might be PP. I never thought anxiety was a symptom, but my doc says most definitely a cousin to depression (he says people either get super anxious or they slow way down).
Anywho, I've kind of found all that prayer stuff works, and also searching out Jesus a little more. Sounds cheesy, but I feel like those thoughts sometimes come from the adversary to just screw with us. For me, if I can feel hope and peace and know that the Savior loves us through all His suffering he did, and that the Lord is more powerful than the adversary, then I'm more peaceful. I just try to think about those thoughts.
Also, the fact that we can just "accept" things works too. We can't prevent everything in the world from happening, but we can have more faith that we can work through things. Anyway...I'm sorry!!
ps have Seth talk you down off the ledge, sometimes that's all you might need..

Amy said...

I know what you are going through. Horrible. And I agree with all the above. I would get up a hundred times a night to check on my kids. Not good for you health thats for sure.

Nate, Jenny and Amelia said...

Amy I'm so glad I checked your blog (thanks KL!) This has been my burden since AJ was born. It is horrible and almost makes enjoying the time with her hard because I keep thinking, "what if it is the last day I get to spend with her"? I keep joking that on February 5th I became the mayor of crazy town. Glad to see I'm not alone in my village though! If you find out remedies, please pass them on!